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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 9:46:35 AM
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"The first will be last," has always seemed a general truth to me that the value system of God is vastly different from the value system of the world in which we live at the moment. It isn't really a matter of what place we are gonna stand in line or where we sit at the table... it is more a statement in my mind that God is saying he is rewarder of those who diligently seek him and who obey his commands... and what he is gonna reward us for is vastly different from what we might expect if we are measuring such things to the worlds standards.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 10:29:29 AM
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Greetings selahgirl,
Has it ever been considered, from the perspective of a birth. A Spiritual birth?
Peace and Love.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 10:33:00 AM
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Possibly one that destroys our comprehension of death?
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 10:43:08 AM
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Not sure I understand the question...
What passage were you pulling from concerning the first shall be last?
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 10:57:36 AM
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Greetings selahgirl,
It is throughout the Gospel of Regeneration or New Testament. Do you not know of it?
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 11:01:10 AM
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Greetings selahgirl,
It is a very well known Body within The Regeneration. Have you not seen it?
Peace and Love.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 11:13:27 AM
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not familiar with that terminology of such a gospel, but yes I have heard that phrase in Scripture before. How it applies to a spiritual birth, I'm not sure. What exactly are you asking? Still not sure I understand the question?
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 11:32:16 AM
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Friendly Greetings selahgirl,
ST. JOHN 3
5: Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit.
In here is the understanding of how The First will be The Last. Also the understanding of The breaker of The Sword of The Cherubim. Also how Only Christ could be betrayed.
Peace and Love.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 12:12:36 PM
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Friendly Greetings Reader,
If at first something is not comprehended, it does not mean that it will not be. It only means there is a will to comprehend, and all willing, honest truthful willing, is a work of God. God knows what we need before we need it. Take Heart, Honestly take Heart any Soul. It is offered to All. Are we not All in God? Therefore, take Heart.
Thank you selahgirl, for raising this. It has been a pleasure to read the Spirit.
Peace and Love.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/21/2010 12:53:16 PM
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I looked up the passage you mentioned and tried to explain it in the thread I mentioned above. And yes, it has been very pleasant chatting with you and seeking a better understanding of the Spirit and Word of God ^_^
Please continue to share your thoughts about it
http://forums.christianity.com/m_4957677/mpage_1/key_/tm.htm#4957789
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/27/2010 9:17:06 AM
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~ "1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Heb 11.
Are we sure of what we hope for, are we sure we know what we hope for, or are we wavering and not focusing our heart on it. If we have faith in something, in someone, then we must be sure of what exactly we are hoping for. Then, we can be certain of what we don't see at the moment, we can believe for something mighty from God. We see it clearly in our spirit and our heart, even tho our eyes are blinded to it and the world around us flaunts the antithesis of it. Be sure you know exactly what you are hoping for and then believe what your spiritual eyes are seeing not your physical eyes. That kind of faith will bring the reality around you into submission to the promises and perfect plan of God, to bless you and prosper you. Sometimes in the battle when we get blood in our eyes the pain of the attack can be so deep that it blinds us spiritually and we lose sight even of hope... but God will not abandon us. Our God is Great and he is loving and he is ever present to keep us from being overcome by the flood or the fire.
~ After the flooding... after the drowning... "18 And the priests came up out of the river carrying the ark of the covenant of the LORD. No sooner had they set their feet on the dry ground than the waters of the Jordan returned to their place and ran at flood stage as before.19 On the tenth day of the first month the people went up from the Jordan and camped at Gilgal on the eastern border of Jericho." Josh 4
~ Josh 5... the entire nation of Israel camped at Gilgal. All the former generation died in the desert. Josh called for all men to be circumcised. There was a cleansing and recommitting to the Lord, as they began to walk in their new found freedom by the grace and power of their God.
After the cleansing and commiting of body mind and spirit to God, the Lord spoke, "9 Then the LORD said to Joshua, "Today I have rolled away the reproach of Egypt from you." So the place has been called Gilgal to this day." And then came the Victory at Jericho and the walls around the enemies encampment crumbled to the ground. God did this.
~ "Since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." (Hebrews 12:1) Not that it's always a graceful Olympic run... quite often it looks more like a very messy MAD MAD MAD MAD WORLD run... only the motive and the treasure are vastly different ^_^
~ Every voice around me, good and bad, well-meaning and logical, loving and wise, all said "Go." But God whispered sharp and exact and with pin-point clarity... but oh so gently... wait. And as terrifying as it was to feel the grave rise over my head, I trusted him and chose to not let the flood waters overwhelm me and cause me to rush to a quick fix... I chose to wait. I am trusting that he will bring my feet out on dry land on the other side.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/27/2010 10:17:37 AM
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Greetings Dear Friend,
Such Faith. Such Wonderful Faith is rarely found. How whole does One feel. Patience hand in hand with Faith, can and does remove mountains. Love is a surety, a God given surety; flown forth from the Heart, Tree, Stock, Root and Sap, that is The Christ. We are those branches. Brought forth as fruit by Our Heavenly and Loving Father.
The Heart is shared so Wonderfully and gently. Thank you Sister. Thank you for sharing. God is with you always, even until the end of time. You need go no where. Share what it is, that is you. Oh Wonderful faith.
Love and Peace.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/28/2010 12:03:50 PM
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I am not sure of the exact time frame, but about nine years ago, I had a dream that has come to pass. The symbolism of such things requires a measure of faith and I am not saying that such things are how God speaks to everyone, altho I believe anyone is a candidate to hear from God thru a dream at any given moment. It was a constant mode of communication thru the Scriptures even in the NT. So here is what I feel this particular dream meant in my life.
I was in my car with a couple of teens and my husband was in his. I was following him to our destination and it was night time. We arrived at a river with a city and a lit up bridge in the distance. He decided to park on the edge of a muddy slippery cliff that sloped toward the water. I wondered out loud what he was thinking because it was so dangerous. I was leery about following him and parking there, but I decided to just go with his decision to take such a risk.
No sooner had I pulled in behind his car, my car slid off the cliff into the water. I was alone in the car at this point, and it began to sink. I knew if I didn't get out of it, I would drown. So I escaped and the car disappeared in the black water.
The dream jumped and I was standing in a huge mansion, that was our home. In the back yard, there was a swimming pool in the patio, not just any swimming pool, but the one that belongs to a family in our church where we have our baptisms. I was standing several floors up staring out a huge glass wall of windows, down at my car which was at the bottom of the pool. I was still soaked and dripping from being in the river, and I had a towel wrapped around my shoulders.
I could see a tiny stream of bubbles rising from my car and knew the key was still on and the radio was playing. I heard God telling me in my spirit that the key had to be turned off so the car could die completely. I wasn't sure why, I just knew that God said it had to be done. I hate water. I dreaded the thought of having to swim down there to turn off the key. I looked to my husband who was sitting at the kitchen table working on some project and asked him to help me. But he was unusually hateful in the dream and refused to even look up at me. There were some girls from church in the kitchen laughing and and mocking me, but I paid little attention to them.
I sat down across from the window, thinking it all thru. Everything in me wanted to just walk away or to let someone else do it. But the voice of God was so strong in my spirit that I knew it had to be done and it was my responsibility that it be accomplished. I also felt that God had said that when it is completely dead, he would raise it up full of newness and life (that was the significance of it being the pool where our baptisms were performed). So I finally stood up after much wrestling of soul, and threw the towel off my shoulders as I said, "Fine! I'll do it."
For some reason I had to go upstairs and change clothes first, which made no sense because I was about to get soaked again any way. But as I went upstairs, I remember walking thru my children's rooms and running my hand over all their childhood toys and things. There was so much love mixed with a sort of sadness that I didn't understand. And the dream ended.
I believe that God's word is so full of goodness and life and wisdom that it speaks to several things and several ppl, not just the word of God in Scripture but even in dreams and words of wisdom and knowledge and such. He can say one small thing and it can speak volumes to several different ppl and situations... all seemingly different, but all full of wisdom when measured back to whatever was spoken. I know that makes little sense, but it is what I have seen occur thru most of my life.
This dream spoke to many things in my life and church experience thru the years but it so clearly speaks to the recent difficulties in my marriage as well. So many symbolic references. The dying meaning I had to take my hands off of the difficulty at hand and let some things die, so God could raise up something new and full of life. The large windows are looking into the spiritual side and seeing what the purposes and direction of God is, rather than measuring things to the seeming reality of the physical world around us.
My husbands actions were so fitting to the situation. The ridicule and shame and mocking inflicted by some of the ppl standing by to witness the destruction at hand. Some ppl are just mean in this world, in the church and outside the church. My decision to obey God was with much wrestling and dread of facing my worst fears, and yet, I made that choice to do whatever it took to accomplish what he was telling me had to be done.
Going upstairs was symbolic of prayer, as was changing clothes, a fresh approach and committment to prayer, to petitioning God for direction and requesting his strength and grace and mercy in the fulfillment of it. The deep love and loss for my children. The touching of the memories and the death of so much that was coming. It was painful, it was being robbed, it was unavoidable.
How fitting it all is. A dream like that, so many years ago. But so clearly a picture of my recent walk thru hell in this life. So you can see why Josh 4 in the post above meant so much to me. There was a certain morning that my heart was just at that last fraction of being overwhelmed by so much evil... I prayed that morning for a miracle for direction to stay or go. I could not have known that God would answer so quickly and so soon. I will refrain from the details, but you could almost hear the ripping in the spirit of the enemies strongholds as God intervened and came to fight for me and those that I love.
That morning in prayer during this time of devotions, I asked for something from his word to rest my heart upon, for assurance that he had heard and would answer, I knew it in my spirit but I needed something to speak to my flesh when it would tempt me to doubt. And the Lord put the passage from Josh 4 in my heart. As I read it I immediately remembered the dream from all those years ago, and knew that whatever His answer looked like, how ever he chose to shape and fashion the miracle that he was about to send in response to my request, the time of flooding and drowning was approaching an end. God was saying it is enuff. The key was about to be turned because God had planned something that would empower me to take my hands off completely and let it die.
In that moment, I would step up on the other side... God was about to put my feet back on dry ground, a solid place. And he did.
For better or for worse. That was the vow. I said earlier that it's easy to love your husband when he is at his best... the real challenge in a marriage is to love him when he is at his worst. With the spilling of blood and the scarring of my heart... God gave me the grace and strength to try. I remember years ago in my morning prayer time, God asked me out of the blue... "What are you willing to go thru for your husband to know me, for him to be the man of God that I have planned for him to be?"
I immediately answered, "Whatever it takes, Lord."
Little did I know what snares the enemy had laid for us or how God would turn what the enemy had meant for evil into something good and powerful and full of life. God did not do the evil deeds, ppl chose to let Satan reach thru them to satisfy their own lusts. But God...
He saw it coming, he had a plan, he prepares his ppl, and he walks us thru it to a greater victory than we could imagine. There is nothing the enemy can steal or kill or devour that God cannot restore, raise up, or renew -- and with POWER. I don't know what the future will look like, I'm sure there is much difficulty in all this that we will have to face... but look at all that God has done despite the scars that remain. He is no stranger to those scars, he carries them in his body as well, and upon his heart. He knows betrayal, and he continues on with the plan of God to bring good things, to
lead his sheep to good pasture as they pass thru the bad to get there. He is the Good Shepherd and he walks it with us, he leads the way, he shares in our sorrows and offers great comfort, miraculous healing, and makes us wise with a Godly wisdom.
Life reeks... this stinky earth... the stench that rises from us all...
Who are we that the God of the Universe would love us so much that he would come down and dwell in such filth, just to sort thru it all and salvage our souls? God loves us. There is nothing, no evil, in this world that can change that, and to be loved... well... that is the greatest thing... not with an earthly love that has conditions and remains so fickle and cowardly... but with the love of the Almighty God, the one true God, the one true Love, and only Life. His love for us, for me and for you, is so great that he walked thru hell on this earth, death, and the grave to rescue us from having to continue in it for eternity.
We are nothing... and yet, we are everything to him.
Now, that is love. May we know love like that, may we know Christ, and may we be like him. Help us Father. In the name of Jesus. Amen <3
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/28/2010 5:54:07 PM
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Dear Greetings selahgirl,
God never lets us forget how brilliant we are to Him. Occasionally His ways refuse our earthly reason. There is always a motive. We simply must remember, continually, the Power of Faith. Oh yes, and never ever stop Loving. God makes sure and tightly, we never forget The Spirit, not The Spirit. It is The Spirit that does All.
Peace and Love Dear Friend & Family.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 7/29/2010 10:57:19 AM
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~ I had a liver biopsy years ago, so painful. They can't numb your organs inside. They make a cut, slide a hollow needle under your rib cage, and then a device shoots thru it, and rips a piece of your liver out. No pain meds, you feel it all.... I feel like such a needle is being injected into my heart over and over. So many lies, so much hurt.... I feel like piece after piece of my heart is being ripped from me...
~ I wish escaping such things were as easy as choosing to... but the reality is that such things must be endured by us all on this earth. We should remember that when we are tempted to cause pain in another person's life... their troubles of the day and ours are enuff... Think really hard before you sin against someone, big or small, don't be that person, don't be that door for evil to reach thru.
~ "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud." 1 Corinthians 13:4
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/5/2010 11:55:14 AM
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~ Some times it's difficult to tell if the stench and filth are really getting less and less... or if you're just getting used to it...
~ Heard an amazing msg at the Naz Church week before last about the Holy Spirit. Really cleaned up the drift that the Church often finds itself caught up in. The Holy Spirit was sent to make us effective witnesses to the world about who Jesus Christ is and what he has done. That is the purpose and focus. It was never sent so that we could dance out into the spotlight to see how holy and impressive we can be.
~ Three degrees of separation is so very true, which means evil ppl are gonna touch your life or cross your path no matter what... maybe it should be called three degrees of connection, cuz you can never truly separate your life from them. blah >_<
~ Don't follow me... I'll get ya lost. But I'll help you read your map =)
~ Ever notice that it isn't so much that life itself is fun... but rather that ppl are fun. Who you spend that perfect day with or that favorite past time or that moment of intriguing chat with.. that's what makes the difference. It's about the relationships in our lives, that's what Christ was trying to say ♥
~ If you ask him, he will come. If you listen, he will speak. If you turn from your sin, he will forgive. If you believe, he will do miracles. So much power in that one little word... if.
~ Sometimes saying what you feel you need to say or someone needs to hear is more for yourself than anyone else... but if it's that strong, you should say it anyway... hopefully with some measure of love and sincerity. It will either guide them to correction and health... or you.. or both =)
~ Some ppl listen and try to fix your problems... others listen and try to encourage you as you search out the solutions. I thank God for you patient encouragers ♥
~ Sometimes experiencing something is the only true and accurate explanation...
~ Some ppl are wired to think deeply... others are wired to live life on the edge... and still others are unique in the most seemingly dramatic and bizarre ways... but all were designed by God for purpose in their quirkiness. I am the queen of quirky... but I am also witness to some pretty stiff competition vying for my crown. haha.
~ The eye freaks out when the body runs with scissors in it's hand... but the hand is thinking I need these in case I come upon someone tangled up in something needing to be cut free... while the feet are thinking about keeping the peace without avoiding the urgency of the situation.... one body, so many parts, each quirky in it's own right ^_^
~ I love the reverence of God of the Catholics, the intense study of the Word of Bethel Community, the outreach to the poor and downtrodden of the Naz Church, the emphasis on holiness and the Rapture of the AG Church... and I love so many precious ppl who congregate and lead at each one. It's not a matter of a perfect church, it's a matter of focusing on the strength of each and working together as One ♥
~ A church dominated by arrogance and sin shines no light... it is not a city on a hill, it is a deathtrap. Shaking the dust off your feet remains a reality still today in sad and rare cases. Examine your heart, petition God, and pray for the Spirit to blow like a wind upon any ember that remains. An arrogant church is a dead limb to the body and will bring infection and death if it's not cleaned up... or cut off.
~ The Church today is running with scissors... I'm just not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing... time is of the essence, doors are closing quickly in these last days, and so many remain tangled up in their sin unsure if they even want to be free.
~ Someone said that all men cheat, but I know some that don't. Stats say that as you look out over your congregation over half the married men there will choose to sin for the slut-factor... I thought about the disciples, chilling and eating among whores and outcasts, among profanity and alcohol, yet remaining focused and pure. 100% of them not 50%. So is the key choosing ur men wisely or leading by example?
~ All men sin... but not all choose the slut-factor. You can help it. You can choose to reject sin and temptation. It's not a sickness, it's not the pressures and stresses of life that push you to it... if that were so then no one deserves to go to hell and God is unjust to send ppl there when they couldn't help themselves. We gotta own our sin and stop it. God says we can and must. No excuses, no logic, no reasoning.
~ She grew up with rejection and craves attention from men because of her own insecurities, she seduces married men to feel wanted and attractive, her husband isn't perfect, she has a demon, she has a sickness... so many excuses for being a slut and destroying the lives of men and wives and children and families.... truth of the matter is SELFISHNESS. We gotta own our sin. No excuses, no logic, no reasoning.
~ Most women have a hard life, everyone has a story to tell of discouragement and abuse... but not all choose to use their pain as an excuse to cause pain to others. The devil didn't make you do it. You chose to be selfish. Own it. Confess it. Stop it. And be free from it ♥
~ When we seek Christ to make us free from our sin... think of all the ppl in our lives that are made free as well... those we no longer hurt, those we encourage to choose rightly by our testimony and example... sin is a cancer that spreads and kills, such far-reaching devastation, but... "Where sin abounds, Grace does much more abound." Scrubbing out the wounds and getting cleaned up stings and hurts, but healing.. ♥
~ 18Consequently, just as the result of one trespass was condemnation for all men, so also the result of one act of righteousness was justification that brings life for all men. 19For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.
20The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, 21so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.(Romans 5)
~ He said that we are able to do all that Christ did, that we would even do greater things... what a mind boggling concept... but what an incredible picture and truth that each time we resist a temptation, our one right choice brings good and Godly power to the lives of so many other ppl. One mans sin brought death to many. One mans righteousness (your right choices) bring life to so many more thru Christ.
Everything you do matters. Good and Bad, Right and Wrong, Big and Small, Religious or Just Life.
~ 12I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. 13And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. 14You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it. (John 14)
~ 18 "Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.
19 If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the best from the land;
20 but if you resist and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword." For the mouth of the LORD has spoken. (Isaiah 1)
~ I sin because I am selfish. God's not gonna hold anyone accountable for my sin but me, not the ppl that cause stress in my life, not my husband, not my boss... It's me, my choices, my decision of who I want to trust and what consequences I am willing to face... knowing that sin always leads to the death of what is precious and good... But God will strengthen me to change. Me and You. He puts freedom within reach ♥
~ Don't act like your life isn't messy too... you may hide it in the closet or under the bed but the mess is gonna spill out one way or another. Dirty laundry just doesn't bother me, mine or yours. The only way to clean it up effectively is to drag it all out in the open and wash it load by load. Few ppl in the Bible were strangers to airing out their dirty laundry. It gives boldness to others who want to be free.
~ I don't want perfect friends and mentors... I want ones that are real and can relate to the positives and negatives of life. Thank God he sent ppl like that into my life. Their examples and empathy and wisdom are the hands and feet and heart of Christ. The word of their testimony flows into mine and demonstrates the saving Grace of God as that forward motion continues toward the Cross.
~ Defining perfection? Looking good on the outside, like you got it all together, like you're a success without a difficulty in life, overflowing with prosperity as tho such things are the only blessing of God that matters... or overcoming evil, being slammed to the ground and getting back up, walking with a limp but still carrying others across that line to victory... Too many jacked up definitions these days.
~ Don't take what I say so seriously... just toss it in the back of your mind until God says something about it... or simply delete it. Thinkers and Philosophers tear it down and take things apart for a closer look and a deeper study... what you rebuild with it is between you and God ^_^
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/5/2010 5:38:38 PM
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Greetings Dear Friend,
The Spirit does rightly teach in many ways. I will forever remain astounded at how such things reflect powerfully and teach powerfully, what it is that needs to be done.
Peace and Love.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/10/2010 10:11:04 AM
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What is Faith? What is Hope?
What does it look like when they are things that cannot be seen and touched and handled? Perhaps it resembles the wind that Christ spoke of. Perhaps it is trusting God that he is aligning things rightly in the Spirit and soon it will manifest around us. The evidence is now but not yet... the evidence exists in the heart before it is birthed in a physical reality.
Another unbearable bombshell, so I filed for divorce. It was sposed to take 45 minutes... I put it in God's hands and he postponed it while he and my husband spoke of things in a spiritual conversation (that would be prayer not skitzophrenia). Something changed and I was asked to consider a separation... I agreed to a 45 day delay before submitting to the court.
Now here is the dilemma.... where does wisdom and reality and faith and hope collide... and where do they fit snugly back together (if at all or even possible) so that the break is difficult to even locate? Four months of betrayal are now two years... she continues to pursue my husband and proposed some things so I would leave him, but he objected. Her response was, "I guess your marriage means more to you than I thought. Take Care." And that is the supposed end (for the second time)...
So what do I trust in... conventional wisdom... that is the common consensus... to continue with the divorce. And that may be the reality... but what if there is another reality seeded in the mix? What if as irrational and foolish as it sounds... the second strike is the final one and the third was never to come? Do we call the game and end it without playing it out to see the outcome as God ordains it?
Sometimes that second strike, or even the first, is so vivid that it is an immediate out.... that's just how the game goes... no guarantees. But sometimes all the fear and anxiety and difficulty associated with two strikes can be overcome by a homerun on the next swing. Do I throw down the bat and walk off the field prematurely? Or do I remain in the heat of the game, reestablish my grip, secure my feet and my stance, and risk a third and final disappointment?
As long as the game isn't called, and hope remains to score a success... I can't quit. I just can't. There are too many ppl in the crowd, too many on my team, so much resting on my decision to quit or to risk... and the coach is giving me that look, to hold on, to focus, to wait it out and be full of courage. No one knows the outcome. It may be a great and glorious moment, or it may be an utter fiasco. It won't be the first time I have heard how foolish I was to risk so much. And it won't be the first time that I stagger painfully away with a peace in my heart that I gave it my all.
Or it may be a moment where persistence pays off.. and the battle scars are made beautiful because Christ says they are. No matter how tender they remain, no matter how marred things may appear... what He says they are is all that matters. Success or Failure by the world's standards just doesn't matter. As long as I hope and trust in Christ and that he will lead me to the other side of any flood or fire... my peace remains with Him and that is the only reality I choose to live.
So much personal stuff that ppl just don't understand. They ask so many off the wall questions about why I need to post such things... but am I to testify or not? Does my life have a purpose in the plan of God as a witness of his goodness or not? I am not the first to walk this road and I will not be the last, and if my stumbling and ugly moments in life can help someone else to find their way, then I will lay it all out on the table.
I beleive that every moment and experience is significant, because every step we make is ordered by God and aligned to bring him the greatest glory... that glory rooted in his love for us despite our struggles in this world... how bloody the battle is... how powerfully he leads us and empowers us to overcome any and all things. The death of a child, the betrayal of a spouse, the violation of our bodies, the rejection of family or friends, the many many heartaches of life... sorrows that he is not unfamiliar with, but that he is determined to work into the tapestry to somehow bring good things to those that hope and trust in Him.
Ppl fail us, we fail ourselves, life fails us, circumstance, the world, evil, so many things and so much opposition to what is good and loving... but Christ overcomes it all. Not only does he over come it, he equips us and makes us able to overcome. He doesn't want to do it all for us, he wants to make a way, to clear the path, to set the example, so that we can walk that road to victory for ourselves, healthy, whole, and reflecting the glory of God. That is light that we are to shine. That is our testimony. We become examples of him, reflections of his character, seeking the will of the Father and continuing in our attempts to perform it, no matter the failures that bring us to our knees, no matter the obstacles or the grit required as we gut through the pain.
Choice.
Choose.
There is no perfection in us, in this life, in the church, in the Christian life... there is only one who is perfect. And that one brings us thru any challenge on to victory if we will but trust and hope in what we cannot see... The Word and Will and Perfect Plan of God. He loves us. He will not fail us, despite our failures.
It doesn't matter what common sense tells you if Christ is saying the moment at hand must go against it. There are days when common sense is the direction he is leading... but there are days that risk becomes a greater reality than what is staring you in the face.
Hear Him, Make your face as flint,
Know that the pain is temporary, and
Obey God <3
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/11/2010 8:52:27 AM
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~ Someone once described trying to reel me in as being kinda like "trying to keep a rainbow in a box." I have always colored outside the lines, cuz sometimes the background can be just as beautiful a place to be. But always respecting the lines... or else everyone would draw in their own, and everything that truly matters would become nothing more than a scribble =)
~ Careful how you scoff at boring old bricks that contribute to the foundation... they may appear hard and gray but they keep so much more in your life on solid ground than you realize. Christ didn't come to destroy the foundations and laws, he came to make them alive and relevant. Each generation would do well to follow his example of giving honor where honor is due... that is the birth of true character and wisdom.
~ When do you stop believing in what you can't see? When do you make the choice to let hope die? If we stop believing, is we stop hoping, we let it die. Some things need to die, while some things are already dead and we just don't realize that we need to let it go... you gotta search your heart before God, laying it all out and letting him not only touch those painful wounded places, but letting him take what is precious to us from us. He either gives it back allowing you to clearly see what you have hoped for as it manifests before your eyes... or he breathes life into some other piece of dirt that he has fashioned to fulfill His promise of abundant life.
~ I know what I have believed. I know what I have hoped for. And I know my God is faithful. He will never forsake me no matter the outcomes of life's challenges and joys <3
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/13/2010 9:44:33 AM
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"I will meet you in the morning, by the bright river side,
when all sorrow has drifted away.
I'll be standing at the portals when the gates open wide,
at the close of life's long dreary day...
CHORUS:
I'll meet you in the morning with a 'How do you do?'
And we'll sit down by the river and with rapture our auld acquaintance renew,
You'll know me in the morning by the smiles that I wear,
When I meet you in the morning in that city that is built four square.
I will meet you in the morning in the sweet by and by,
And exchange the old cross for a crown,
There will be no disappointments and no body shall die,
In that land where life's sun goeth down.
CHORUS
I will meet you in the morning at the end of the way,
On the streets of that city of gold,
Where we all can be together and be happy for aye,
While the years and the ages shall roll.
CHORUS
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Had to dig out an old hymnal to find the right lyrics, but this old hymn has been stuck in my head this morning. We used to sing it back in my 20s in the AG church. I so miss the worship from those days. Love the more contemporary worship, but can't say that either is better. The chorus to this song is so beautiful, sung in kind of a round <3
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/20/2010 10:06:10 AM
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~ My children have blessed me with so much laughter this week, and everything they know I love... all those years ago, I thought I would become a mom and bless my children by trying to be a good one... who knew that their love and ministry to me would be so much greater than anything I could have offered them. If that is a glimpse of how precious our love is to God our Father, wow, I find it humbling ♥
~ Children are the greater blessing, because they are love reciprocated... love given back that makes things whole... love offered by one, received by the other, then given back but never released... it doesn't always work, but when it does and everyone participates as God had hoped... there is nothing more beautiful... it is the union and manifestation (birth) of what is Good, straight from the heart of God.
~ True love is never found in perfection because perfection isn't a reality... not yet anyway. True love is the whole Megillah, the ugly and the beautiful, the beast and the hero, in each of us... it is the ugly made beautiful and the beast choosing to be the hero and the honest progression from imperfection to perfection in Christ... The reality of true love, is the good and the bad, all submitted as clay to His will.
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/23/2010 11:46:47 AM
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~ "When I said , My foot slippeth ; thy mercy, O LORD, held me up . In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul." (Psalm 94:18-19)
~ Time doesn't heal all wounds, Christ does, but only when we make wise use of our time in an effort to help heal those we have hurt... otherwise the dirt under the carpet eventually works it's way back out into the open... and the messes we refuse to take ownership of and clean up, begin to sour and stink and foster all kinds of disease... Christ heals when we do our part as his hands and feet.
~ We're all broken... following Christ simply means that we go to him to helps us heal, and we feel bad when we break each other's hearts, so much so that we do it less and less.
~ Being broken in the sense of making a mess of our lives is not the same as being broken for God... we are born with a sin nature because we have all embraced rebellion just as Adam and Eve did... but to be broken for God means to allow our arrogance and pride to be crushed, even if we must die in the process, so that God can breathe a fresh breath of Life into us, body mind and spirit ♥
~ I would rather die and Live, than to live a lie and believe that serving myself is anything short of being a walking dead man...
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 8/26/2010 9:54:19 AM
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~ "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." (Psalm 13:12)... the difficulty is that there's no way to see the outcome of any circumstance of life, whether hope deferred or hope fulfilled. And so you do the best you can... attempting to discern whether the Spirit of God is leading in the direction of obvious common sense or ridiculous miraculous irrationality.
~ The consequences of our choices, whether good or bad, are measured to the motives of our heart and the conviction found in our character according to our understanding of the word of God... not what we tell ourselves is right as we try to get what we want... "There is a way that seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death." (Proverbs 14 and 16)
~ I see freedom... but it remains a ways up the road. In my mind and my heart I am free, I know it because he has said it and I trust him... eye on the prize, and that prize is entering into that freedom one day body mind and spirit. The now and not yet... those gray moments of transition are the most challenging, the journey from one place to the next. Life is a journey full of journeys =)
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RE: Did I just think that out loud?... - 9/2/2010 10:21:09 AM
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~ Don't try to figure me out.. it's never gonna happen. I'm a walking oxy-moron just like you. haha. But you'll always get honesty in love from me =)
~ It's just not fun living in uncertainty - it is a hard thing to hope for what is not seen - it is challenging to believe in your hearts desire and yet brace yourself for the reality and risk of disappointment - but such is life. We don't walk it alone, there's no avoiding the pain and stress of it all... not when we're being honest. God walks us thru the fire, but to live requires us to feel it all, sorrow and joy ♥
~ We are not to sorrow as the world sorrows... we are alive and we feel the hurt, but the sting of it all is eased by knowing that what we hope for is sure, and that hope is in the perfect will and plan of God. Christ came to restore our hope, our peace with God. He walked thru the sorrow and the pain of this world, of ppl, to show us that we can do it as well, he made a way to overcome it all. Be of good cheer =)
~ "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)
~ I like a good country song - but I like that stuff that rocks ur face off too - and a little Mozart to top it off is just the icing. God can be seen in everything, Truth is real and it exists in everything because God is everywhere. We just have to make an effort to see it and to measure it to the Word of God. All of life is merely a crossroads... where life meets Life. The journey is an intersection's width.
~ Sooo tired of boxes. You just can't organize life into neat little boxes. Living in Truth is dumping it all out on the table, getting your hands dirty, taking a breath and not giving up on the task at hand... surveying what has value... God and People ♥
~ "The earth is filled with your love, O Lord; teach me your decrees." Psalm 119:64
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